Mundaneness and Madness

I havent written for a while have I!!! All that resolve to be regular GONE out the window!!! :S ahh well….life has been up and down for a while now. My mother in law and her fiance are here at the moment which is awesome coz we dont get to see them very often. and tomorrow my little sister and my mum are coming to stay for a few days which is VERY exciting also I have FINALLY been marked competent for the portfolio that SU lost for my course, so Im almost there with that too which is good considering I need to apply for uni soon.

And yet I feel flat. I guess Im tired, and really in need of a good holiday, but I wont be getting one any time soon. I stuffed up at work today. Theres only one thing more frustrating than being angry and thats being angry at yourself. Noone to scream at. Its awful to hate the person under your own skin…..I HATE how stupid I can be sometimes, it really gets me riled that I can be SO dumb. And when its yourself..what can you do about it??? Nudda! like going around in circles trying to catch your own tail.

Yup Im definately tired…time for shower and bed I think. I have to work tomorrow BLECH. At least it will be just me and Linda….Saturdays are SO much less stressful. PTL! Much love to anyone who bothers to read this anymore…..sorry its been sporadic

A Reminder

Last night Brad and I went over to my friend's place for a couple of drinks, and I was reminded just how lucky I am that Brad is who he is. My friends had a couple of THEIR friends over….a couple who had been married 8 years, but who were VERY into the whole drninking thing..and of course everyone was drinking…cept brad. Then my friend wanted her spouse to get the bbq started and he was complaining nad procrastinating and telling her to do it, and who brought the bbq round? brad. brad did it because he's a sweetheart and was sober, and coz hes sensible and mature. And I found myself thinking, thank GOD brad isnt like those other guys. As funny as they are, and as nice as they were, they were also BLIND drunk, and I couldnt imagine being in that situation as often as my friend is. I love them both DEARLY of course, but I dont envy her one bit. In the grand scheme of things, brad isnt a christian but he sure acts more like it than most!!!! Im just so lucky that brad is different…..coz see I can be loud and wanna have a good time, but without Brad there to calm me I would be an emotional and spiritual trainwreck. Its brad that keeps me on the even keel, and without him Id be ruined!

 I had a GREAT time at church this morning!!!! Soooo much fun the kids gave us easter eggs, and Im leading a song at church on Good Friday for the very first time!!! Ca you believe that! My dream of being a worship leader just might come true yet! I KNOW its something Im meant to do and thank GOODNESS our music director knows it too! She's got faith in me and thats really nice

On a less happy note I have to work tomorrow, and the boss is just going to be there and me…..im not looking forward to that much. I pray things go ok, and once again my stomach is in butterflies tho Im sure I got nothing to worry about. I just get so nervous around her!!!! I keep praying to God that he will help me, and I just pray that peace will fill that place tomorrow and we can get along ok! AMEN!