Well, today is the first day of university…all across Australia kids and kids at heart have just begun another year of unpaid hard academic labour! Why you might ask? Cos we’re CRAZY LOL nah kiddin….I love study I just cant wait til its over! I have had my study packs for a week or so which is handy…im on my way. Wanna keep ahead of the game so to speak. Things here are ok……once again our future is clouded….we’re not sure what we’re meant to be doing now. I still reckon Brad needs an apprenticeship, and I probably push far too hard. The bottom line is im scared…..Im scared of regret, Im scared of getting nowhere, Im scared of not being able to provide for our family in the way i would like. Im DEAD scared of Brad having to hop from job to job his whole life, no stability, no security..I WONT let that happen. Ive been in that life, its horrible. I’ve watched my parents turn their stomachs inside out for YEARS wondering where the next job is going to come from, and that was WITH the local small town advantage. we dont have that here or anywhere else….we’re starting absolutely cold nomatter where we are and Im TRYING to hand it over to God. I really really really am. the money thing isnt the issue…… I handed that over when I started tithing and so far so good…..I am just frightened. EVERYTHING I do is out of sheer terror. I just dont know what to do anymore….
*sigh* now im getting teary…better go!
